Comsci B

Here i am, another day in the computer science labs of UoA, where i have spent 70% of my university life, even though i'm not enrolled here. Listening to "I'm not afraid - Eminem" thinking about the come back which he is trying to make, wondering if i will be able to make a comeback in my own life. All this time i have wasted in the past few years, will i ever be able to make them worthy? would these experiences which i have been through in those years become useful to me one day? I wish there was a time machine, not one where i can go to the past and change things, because i am perfectly happy with what i have now, my friends, my family, i feel i have finally reached a sanctuary in my life where i feel content about who and what i am. Instead, being a person who always seeks the truth and useless information, i wish i had a time machine which could show me where i would be and what i would be doing right now if i hadn't made so many mistakes in my life, would i be working full time already? or would i be living in the streets? or maybe even dead?

Anyways, i want a tattoo, maybe not today or anytime in the next 1~2 years, but i know i definitely want one and will get one sometime in the future. I have been giving this plenty of thought and as of right now, i want to have a full sleeve of a bamboo forest.

Why? you might ask me. Well, my last name is Lin, written in tradiational chinese, it is made of 2 characters of "wood" and is defined as a forest. I want something which i can always use to remind myself of who i am and my family. The bamboo on the other hand, symbolise the strength of my life force. As bamboos are one of the very few trees who can stand up to hurricanes, showing that after all the distractions and stepping stones in my life, i am still standing strong, like a bamboo forest would.

The symbol of bamboos also have other meanings. "reliability, courage, longevity, good fortune, and impending fame" and in china, bamboo is said to be the food of the mystical phoenix, the word bamboo in chinese is synonymous with "to wish" and "to pray". In japan, bamboo trees are often planted around shrines to ward off evil.